No More Depression, Family Restored
I thank God for GRC Online and Pastor Prince. God has moved so many mountains in my life since I began seeing Pastor Prince on television and online.
Shortly after seeing him for the first time on television, I was taking a shower, and I was so depressed, suicidal, and lost. But I heard the voice of God say, “I will restore everything the cankerworm took.” I doubted, but instead of giving up on me, He repeated it again and again. There was such a feeling of love and comfort while He was saying it, almost like a hug from a friend who refuses to leave your side because you are that important.
At that time, my family was not speaking with me, and my children were rebelling. I was suffering PTSD due to childhood trauma, and I felt like I failed God because I grew up in the church, yet all my children were born out of wedlock. I was the woman at the well.
At the beginning of this year, God brought back to my mind the day when He spoke to me. Since then, He has restored so much. My children are close to me and speak well of me. I am close to my brother and sister again, and we can talk about the past without pain. I have not thought about committing suicide in years. I no longer see myself as damaged goods. I am no longer afraid of men. And God has given me a gift so precious that I have shared it with my kids.
I could not get past the fact that I failed God and my grandmother by having children out of wedlock. One day, God brought the story of David and Bathsheba to my mind. Despite David’s mistakes, when the sin debt was paid, God blessed them with Solomon. I am so thankful that Jesus loved us enough to go to the cross on our behalf and that our Father God loved us enough to allow it.
Because of God, my oldest daughter could tell me she had never seen me live alone this long and that she was proud of me for not moving another man in. I have lived alone for 3 years now. I was once so afraid of being alone that I never would have lasted this long. All glory and honor to God. I am so happy He loves me!
Texas, United States