Delivered From Depression

I was baptized when I was thirteen years old but I did not attend a church until I got married. I was so happy to attend church every Sunday after I met my husband, but even though I did that and tithed regularly, there was an emptiness in my heart that I could not understand.

My husband was running a company with his partner and I was working at his company in the planning and marketing division. There were ups and downs in the business but we were still able to grow steadily. And then my husband’s business began to go downhill, round about the time an unexpected issue rose up in our church, resulting in a church split.

Due to the shock and stress I encountered at work, I became depressed and had to stop working. Although I was attending church, my beliefs could not help me overcome the depression. I went for counseling and listened to various pastors’ sermons to try to overcome the depression but nothing helped.

In the midst of battling depression, my husband’s company went bankrupt and we faced financial difficulties. I had to take medicine to be able to sleep and go to work in the day. Every day, I would hear voices telling me that my life was not worth living and to end my life. I wished so many times that I did not have my daughter so that I could end my life but I kept on going because of her.

I tried everything I could to get rid of the depression. I attended a small group in church and I shared my difficulties with pastors and group leaders. However, they just kept telling me to attend discipleship training to overcome my difficulties, and that I needed to work harder to get closer to God. My depression carried on for two years and I knew things were terribly wrong. If I were a daughter of God, then why were things not getting better for me?

One day, one of Pastor Joseph Prince’s books caught my eye and I started to read his book and listen to his sermons. I used to think only the elders of a church were righteous and that I was a sinful person. But I learned through Pastor Prince’s messages that I am righteous in Jesus. I thought I had to try harder to overcome my issues, but I realized that Jesus had already finished all the work.

Every morning, I confessed that I am the righteousness of God in Jesus. I listened to Pastor Prince’s grace sermons every day and prayed to God that I believed what I heard. I stopped trying and rested in God. After a few days, I suddenly I felt joy in me and my work and realized that I was sleeping without taking any medication. I was freed from the depression and I could see what had been wrong in my life for the past ten years.

Now, I am running my own business and am helping my husband find a new job. I am also praying for his legal issues with the company to end soon so that he can have his dignity restored.

Thank you, Pastor Prince, and I pray that the message of grace will spread widely in Korea.