Free From Depression And Lifelong Pornography Addiction

When I was younger, I was depressed, suicidal, and felt I was a terrible sinner. I was also extremely shy, had low self-esteem, and no self-worth. Later on, extreme wrong believing led me to believe that I’d developed cancer because of my life of sin.

Out of this fear, I decided to give my life to Christ. Yet, I struggled in my Christian walk as I was trying to live right by adhering to the Ten Commandments. This took a toll on me and my life went from bad to worse. The college I wanted to go to rejected me and I had to repeat my final year in high school.

During that period, I was praying fervently for hours every day, but it became too much to bear and I had a nervous breakdown. That began the toughest years of my life. My family tried their best to take care of me, but at that point I had lost all hope. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with psychotic features (a mental disorder in which a person has depression along with loss of touch with reality). I was taking anti-depressants and anxiety relief and anti-psychotic drugs. I had no joy whatsoever and it seemed like I couldn’t even do things I used to be good at.

I decided to rededicate my life to God and I signed up for a Bible course. After a few weeks, I quit the course and also rejected offers for a decent job. I sank lower and lower, and all I could do was pray. But by a turn of events, I got accepted by another college to do chemical engineering, and I started to go to another church. Life seemed to get better even in the midst of my anxiety.

Then, I injured my leg playing football. I had to take a year off from pursuing my degree, when I had just two more semesters to go to complete it. I stayed with relatives who mistreated me. I also lost every job I held and could not pass job interviews. Eventually, I ended up working in a job that required hard labor.

I felt like I was done with God. I had viewed some of Pastor Prince’s sermons in the past and I thought they were good, but they did not impact me. However, one night, when I was venting my frustrations to my dad, he told me that he was watching a sermon by Pastor Prince about our sins being forgiven—past, present, and future.

As I listened to Pastor Prince preach, but something came alive in me that night. I took hold of that word and I started listening to Pastor Prince’s messages every day on Trinity Broadcast Network. My life has changed since then.

The grace of God has touched me again and I have started reading the Bible. I now have a new perspective on God’s Word and a revelation about Jesus. I started believing right and, just like clockwork, I started living right. I am now freed from a lifelong addiction to pornography. By the grace of God, I have also been freed from the need to take prescription drugs for more than two months. I know that I am healed.

Jesus is now the center of my life and nothing compares to His unconditional love. Pastor Prince, I know God has changed me. I thank God for you and your preaching of the unmerited favor of God.