I am a 31-year-old mother and wife. I was born and raised a Christian. I grew up having personal encounters with the Lord Jesus. My life was smooth sailing up until the year 2016, when I got pregnant with my firstborn out of wedlock. Little did I know that was a loophole for the devil to accuse and condemn me daily.

I left church because I was ashamed, self-blaming, lonely, and had low self-esteem. I felt worthless, and all the negative feelings were a burden too heavy for me to carry. My life basically went into turmoil with financial, emotional, and psychological problems and pressures. I even shifted the blame to the baby’s daddy. I resented him for bringing all this negative energy and bad luck into my life.

I had Joseph Prince’s books and watched his television sermons. But I thought I knew what Jesus wanted from me. I also had pride when it came to my spirituality. I always had an attitude of how I should fix myself to be in the presence of the Lord. This attitude lasted for 5 years and did not work for me at all. My life was not changing, and I was never satisfied with anything. It was as if I had a void inside me that nothing could fill.

My breakthrough came when I started listening again to Joseph Prince’s sermons with a different mindset. I sensed that the Lord wanted me the way I was, with all my flaws and condemnation, and that He wanted to fix me Himself. Jesus wanted me to just come to Him, and He would clean me. I didn’t have to clean my life to be in His presence.

My life started to transform from the inside out. I encountered the Lord’s grace, which radically changed everything. It uprooted the condemnation at its roots, provided financial stability, and allowed me to love and appreciate my husband. Now, no matter what situation I come across, I know that my Father in heaven loves me and wants the best for me. I always refer to the Lord Jesus as the source of my peace and happiness when interacting with others.

As I write this now, my position at work is affected by job cuts, but I know my loving heavenly Father has greater plans for my life because He is with me and for me, and His blessing is always whole and in abundance.

I used to partake of the Holy Communion as a way of repenting from my sins, which was a very heavy task to do. Today, I love partaking of the Holy Communion because it’s a symbol of how much Jesus loves me and that by the cross, my life can never be defeated, as Jesus is my Savior, Redeemer, provider, and protector forever and ever.