I’ve been a Christian almost all my life, but it never helped my mental health the way the gospel of grace has.

I had struggled with depression, anxiety, and panic attacks since I was 12 years old. The symptoms worsened over the years, and four years ago, I began taking medications for depression and anxiety. I had always battled suicidal thoughts, but as my condition worsened, so did those thoughts.

At one point, I experienced my worst depressive episode that lasted over a month. I lost hope, and the fog of depression blinded me from the good life I had and from the people who loved me. I hated myself for the mistakes I’d made in the past. I truly believed I was a villain who didn’t deserve to live.

One night, I was ready to end my life. The only thing that stopped me was that I did not want to do it in my home, where my family would find me. I waited until morning, and when I opened my door, I found a pile of mail on the floor. That wasn’t unusual—my mom often left it there. But on the very top was a letter from Joseph Prince Ministries.

I’d received letters from the ministry before and was ready to ignore it, until I noticed someone had handwritten a note on the envelope: “Eliana, don’t miss out on experiencing this gift!” They had also circled these words on the envelope: “INSIDE: A biblical truth so powerful you cannot afford to ignore it.”

When I saw this, I believed God put it on someone’s heart to write this, and He made sure this envelope would be at my door, ready to stop me from taking my life. I told God I would give Him one chance, and I opened the envelope. Inside was a message on the power of 1 John 4:17: “As He is in heaven, so are we in this world.”

There was also a testimony of a woman who wrote this scripture on her report that said she had breast cancer. She stood on this scripture and was healed by saying, “Does Jesus have breast cancer? Neither do I in this world.”

I was in tears reading the message, and I told God I would try to stand on the scripture, but that if it did not heal the depression, I would still end my life. Every day, I would say, “Does Jesus have depression, anxiety, or panic attacks? Neither do I in this world.” It wasn’t instantaneous healing, but I did feel a little better each day I said this.

I later decided to watch Joseph Prince daily. After a year of doing this, I stopped taking my medication, and after two years, I can say that I am 100 percent healed! Hallelujah!