I am 52 years old. From the age of 30, I suffered from mental illness. I would hear voices and see things. My mind could never shut off, and I couldn’t sleep. So I took sleep aids, drank, or smoked weed. The meds the doctors gave me made things worse. I would have attacks almost daily, mostly about hell and my mistakes. This kept me in fear 24/7. It just exhausted me and made me more vulnerable to the enemy. People around me suffered dealing with me.

I’ve been a Christian for as long as I can remember, so I couldn’t understand why I had to suffer like this when others did not. The sermons I heard only added to the feeling of being punished by God. I’d prayed for death even though I was afraid to die. I went to a church, and it helped with the attacks, but I couldn’t stay because hell was mentioned often.

One day, I was sitting in my living room when Joseph Prince came on the television. I carried on watching him, but I felt confused and even guilty for believing him. But when I saw him on TV the next time, I watched him again. I wanted to learn more about Jesus’ love and grace, so I got hold of his CDs, DVDs, and books. I listened daily and the enemy fought against this, but I was hooked on grace!

Joseph backs up his sermons with biblical teachings, and 5 months after listening, my life changed for the better. I now go boldly to my heavenly Father, and people have seen a change in me. I am no longer afraid, and my panic attacks are few and far between. I also tell others about grace. If I hadn’t heard Joseph preach God’s grace, I can’t imagine where I’d be now.

The enemy still attacks me, but I get over the attacks by repeating scriptures and believing my past is forgiven and that I’m still righteous even when I fail. Thank you.