For the past five years, I was addicted to masturbation and watching pornography. I struggled with sexuality and could never imagine opening up my struggles to anyone because of being raised in a Christian home with a strict pastor for a father.

I started to hate myself and had thoughts of committing suicide. I even went to church one Sunday with the intention of jumping off a four-story building. However, I backed out at the last minute. But my self-hate continued to grow and my addictions didn’t stop.

I tried telling myself that what I was doing was such a sin and an abomination. Yet, I found myself repeating the acts over and over again. My sense of guilt and self-hate continued to grow. I responded to every altar call hoping that it would change my life. When it didn’t, I kept out of church for years since I felt like God couldn’t and didn’t want to change me. I accepted myself and embraced my addictions as being who I was meant to be.

However, when I started listening to Pastor Joseph Prince, I saw a different God! I started seeing a loving God who understands my struggles and not one who condemns me for my weaknesses! When I learned that I’m already forgiven and righteous regardless of my performance, I just quit my sinful behaviors and started loving myself for who I really am in Christ!

The gospel of grace has transformed me! My addictions have stopped effortlessly. I am overjoyed by the freedom I have received in this and other areas of my life! Thank you, Pastor Prince, for availing yourself as a vessel of God in changing lives all over the world! God bless you and increase your ministry greatly! Thank you!